Give me sadness
With its grey skies
My heart ripped into two
Let me sob
Let listen to gut wrenching songs
Let me write dark and dreary poetry
Let me share my woes to all
About the unfairness and hurt
That my senses perceive whenever I breathe
Yes, give me this sadness, that has a clear cause
This sadness that I hate: Give me that: For my own sake
Sadness is natural; a part of human life
Barely on the spectrum
When I compare it to Numbness.
Grey skies vs blackness nothing
Heart in two vs non-feeling beats
An inorganic place called the Abyss
Where Numbness holds myself
Not song, word, or voice allowed
Not even the grace of sadness can present itself
Just me and Numbness
And empty thoughts of blankness
No one in; no one out
Unbearable Disconnection
The world’s simple notion of depression as sad sadness
Gives no justice to the Numbness of the Abyss
So, please, may I have sadness?
ABOUT THE AUTHOR: Jody Michele Powers
Jody Powers is an independent consultant for the Indiana Coalition Against Domestic Violence, where she serves on the leadership. committee of Indiana Disability Justice and is the Hub Coordinator of the IDJ website. Jody is also a licensed Christian minister, whose faith motivates her to promote the human dignity of all people. Jody has cerebral palsy with visual and speech impairments. She uses a power chair for mobility. She deals with clinical depression and PTSD, unseen disabilities that affect her life as much as her seen disabilities.
Email: jodymichele@outlook.com