By: Gwen Strickland, MPH
I went to a conference recently and witnessed a very ableist presentation about lead poisoning in children. The researchers were well-meaning. They looked at how lead poisoning altered the development of the human brain and body. The researchers found that children exposed to higher concentrations of lead had higher rates of ADHD and developmental delays as they got older. Over the course of the rest of this presentation, the public health professional was less well-meaning. The main presenter, who had a master’s degree in public health, took a very specific angle in how she approached the prevention of lead poisoning in children. She consistently used scare tactics throughout that were reminiscent of Autism Speaks advertisements. She highlighted the behavior issues in children who had been exposed to lead and talked about how greatly this disrupted families. She started her presentation/slides with a story about a boy in South Bend who “suddenly, one day” stopped developing and it took another year after that to determine he had lead poisoning. His developmental delays, she said, lead to their family falling apart and losing their house. That this “was the reality” for children and families affected by lead. She seemed confident that lead was “causing” ADHD and autism in her healthy community. If you replaced any of the times she said “lead” with “vaccines,” she would have been called an anti-vaxxer. This speech was not, in the end, about lead. It was about finding something else to target to eradicate “problem children.” It was “I did not sign up for a child with disabilities” and lead was the scapegoat.
Later it was confirmed the effect that this had had. Someone asked what to do if they had a child with ADHD or autism and if it was lead that caused it. The researchers said “there is no way to determine that” but the other lady was clear that lead could be behind it and to test their child immediately. She was not a scientist and not able to give that sort of correlation/causation statement. Everyone in the audience left with the message that lead could cause ADHD and autism and that we could erase “problem behaviors” from those by addressing lead poisoning. I heard so many people in the hallway talking about how they just had to share with everyone they knew about this threat. I felt so stigmatized and like this was just going to increase the erasure and masking of people like me.
I only recently discovered I am autistic and in the past few years have been diagnosed with/put on medication for ADHD. I have been so high masking (hiding and over-compensating for my autistic/ADHD behaviors) my entire life and have had the privilege of being able to maintain that up until this point, but that comes at a cost. I have only just been able to start unpacking how much damage and trauma have occurred as a result of masking for this long and not recognizing what my needs are. Not even knowing that I had different needs, because as far as I knew I was allistic (not having an autistic neurotype) and the reasons that I wasn’t completely fitting into that box were a myriad of character flaws. What caused this? People like this speaker, who punish or medicalize needs like these as “problem behaviors” instead of having compassion and realizing that not all “abnormal” behavior is inherently a problem requiring a fix.
I think researchers and health advocates get the wrong idea. They think we need to be “saved” from our disability, that preventing other people from experiencing disability is the highest priority. The reality is that I don’t need to be “saved” from my autism or ADHD. I need society and our structures to accept me the way I am and meet me where I am rather than creating arbitrary rules that keep me from being able to participate fully. The reason, in large part, that my autistic/ADHD experience is that of disability is that society is not built for the way my brain works. It is also inherently traumatic to live in a world that is not built for you. And it wouldn’t be much of a stretch to make those adjustments and be cognizant that other people may have different neurotypes than you. Everyone loses when we squash the neurodiversity our species is capable of.
Though I struggle a lot with my mental disabilities even outside the constraints of a society not built for me, when I am able to be as fully my authentic self as I can, I am capable of amazing things that my allistic and neurotypical peers are not. Contrary to the pervasive narrative that autistic individuals have no empathy, most autistic people I have come across have an over-abundance of empathy and an innate sense of justice. We are often creative, have great attention to detail, and think about problems outside of the box. Autistic brains tend to do what is called “bottom-up processing.” This means that when we approach a problem or question, we collect as many details and smaller pieces of information about the problem as we can to then form broader conclusions about the problem. Allistics tend to do what is called “top-down processing,” which is the opposite. They approach a problem by finding generalities about the problem, typically based in what they already know, and then move into the details. It is valuable to have both approaches, as they can come out with differing perspectives to be considered for the problem or question.
I will end this narrative by emphasizing that if you’ve met one autistic person, you’ve met one autistic experience. We exist on a spectrum (which looks more like a radar chart, not a line from “more autistic” to “less autistic”) for a reason. We all have our own unique support needs, strengths, and struggles. But we are valuable to the human species just like everyone else and should not be erased or suppressed. If there were a magic button right in front of me that could “cure” my autism or ADHD, I would walk away. (Not everyone with my disabilities may feel this way. I have lower support needs than some and can be relatively high masking when needed, which gives me privilege.) I know my worth and I’m going to keep fighting for it, regardless of what people like this public health professional have to say about it.
Bio
Gwen (she/they) is the Violence Prevention Program Evaluator for the Indiana Department of Health. They did their undergraduate degree in public health and bioinformatics at Miami University in Ohio and Master of Public Health in epidemiology at Indiana University Purdue University Indianapolis (IUPUI). They are AuDHD (autistic and ADHD) and proudly part of the LGBTQ+ community. Outside of public health work, Gwen likes to engage with her special interests and spend time with her spouse and dog. Together with their spouse, they go to comic conventions and play Dungeons and Dragons. They also occasionally volunteer for a dog rescue.
